About Me!

The tattoo I designed (inspired mostly by my Spirit/Angel Guides) and have in between my shoulder blades. I love it!

You know, there are not a lot of things that truly take me out of my “Comfort Zone”; yet actually doing this blog is definitely jarring to me. I don’t think I could have done it several years ago at all – I mean, I could’ve started getting information like this, and I would have been ok, but I don’t think I’d be confident enough in the validity of it to share it with others on any public forum!

I might be left-handed, and I am very creative, but when I’ve done those left/right brain tests, you know where I test? Almost exactly in the middle. Creative/analytical. Almost perfectly balanced. So, there’s enough of the creative side that says, “Get it. Love it. Knew it!” Then, the analytical side says, “Huh? Really? Are we getting a little crazy, or something? Does this make sense?”

However, this is different. In my core, I have absolutely no doubt about its validity. It’s right. And as I said, I have this serious PUSH to share it – whether it’s from my Guides or my Higher Self, or whomever – because I JUST KNOW there are many other people who are starting to have *little things* happen that can’t explained conventionally. That’s been validated to me by a continuous flow of  seemingly random events that I’m sure have been put out there to assure me, and that left side of my brain. Because good grief, I am SO Type A, and I’ve spent years getting out of my head and trying to get into my heart!

That’s been a tough journey, into my heart. It’s a tightly-guarded place, even from myself sometimes.

As I said in my first post, since I really started studying all of this in November 2009 (see, analytics always comes into play!), it was the first time I really wrote it all down and looked at my life to date from a big picture perspective.  Believe it or not, I have a certain string of my life all posted on yet another blog, but one that is anonymous, 3 or 4 steps hidden, and completely disconnected to anything else about me. I just feel that if anyone out there finds it, they will have needed to find it, and I hope it helps them the way it helped me. The purpose for that one was for me to simply “throw up” some things that I’d held deep down for a long time; it gave me an opportunity to bring it all out into the light of day and study it all. And you know what? When I did that – when I backed up and saw the forest, instead of every vein on every leaf on every tree – I got it. Like, “Duh!”  I knew this was all right. And then I became completely all right with the rest of it.

Anyway, it was in the cleansing process of writing the first blog that I did realize that what I’ve been from the start is empathic. And SO MUCH almost immediately made sense once I was able to categorize it (again, analytics). I was a weepy, overemotional smaller child, and I ABSOLUTELY HATED when someone was upset in my presence, because I felt their feelings. However, I couldn’t talk to anyone about it, and just buried it deep. I was a mess inside as I entered teen years, because my mother was so angry and volatile. I’m not saying she was a bad person by any means – just angry. She had a lot of stuff she held inside – she’s a very fixed person in many ways, and by nature self-involved – and once my great-grandmother passed away when I was 11, and then my sister moved out shortly after that, it was just her and me. My grandparents did still live there, too, but both worked full time, and I barely saw them except on the weekends. So, when Mom was in one of her moods, there was usually no one else around to divert that negative energy, and I soaked it up. (Granted, my great-grandmother had days of her own when she’d been alive – believe me, I remember days when I could feel her nastiness, then go hide in my room and be angry, but in general, she had good days, too, and I generally remember her as almost a neutral factor in the house.)  When I was around her, I was angry, irritated, and generally just dark. Now, you’ll say, “That’s a normal teenager, though, isn’t it?” True. Which is probably why I never thought about it back then! But I was an emotional chameleon. And I hated it – mostly because I knew instinctively that it wasn’t from me, and I didn’t like the thought that someone else was controlling my emotions. So I worked hard to shut it off.

I fought hard to get that under control, and by the time I reached my late teens and early 20s, I was pretty good at it. By the time I reached my late 20s, I was a steely pro.

On the other hand, without even consciously knowing it until now, I’ve been able to use the ability well! For example, it’s really hard for someone to lie to me about something that matters – anything that would elicit an emotional response – because I can tell almost immediately it’s a lie due to being able to feel that emotional response, which then triggers the red alert. Seriously, that’s always been spooky (and my husband has learned very well how easily I pick up on things like that)! Here’s another example: I can be in a room full of people, everyone chattering away, and I can feel if there’s someone who’s very upset, even if they’re hiding it well. It’s done well for me in business – negotiations, working with difficult people, managing others – and the funniest thing is that I never consciously knew how I did it! Intuition? Sure – just a specific kind!

And now, I have to do a complete about face. I’ve been working hard to cut a door in the armor, because I understand that it’s really important to feel. Because that’s what it’s all about… but more about that in the blog, as we go.

Anyway, when those flutterings come in my stomach from thinking about putting this out there, I remember back to the early 2000s, when I was first touched by Neale Donald Walsh’s series Conversations with God. I remember he wrote about the panic attacks that he would have regarding putting that information out there – what would people think? What if he looked like a freak? Etc. But at the end of the day, he knew it was right, like I know this is right. I admire his courage – and look at the following he has today from taking that leap!

Now, I’m not doing this to get a following – at least not for my ego’s purposes. I’m doing this because I want to help – I’m supposed to help, I know, along with the others who are going through this awakening process now. I do know that it will be harder for others, later on – when they awaken (and they will) – because many in the general population won’t understand, and it will scare them. Especially if what they remember isn’t akin to what they’ve been taught in fear and for political control. Do you know what people do when you mess with their foundation of beliefs? They often fight it like a cornered animal. They can be ugly. Remember Jesus Christ, and what they did to him because he messed with the status quo of the times? Now that I really understand what his intentions had been and how they became misconstrued and twisted for political control all way back at the original creation of the Christian church, I understand what happened to him and why.

Which is why I think that, with guidance and help from the ascended masters and other guardians (whether you believe they are aliens, angels, guides, or whatever), quite a number of people here in 3D Earth are starting to have similar experiences to mine. I’ve been told that those of us being awakened now need to assimilate, (re-)learn, and (re-)master all of this knowledge very quickly, because we’re needed to help all the others – and there isn’t much time. I guess we all have a job to do based on our different strengths.

Communication, as I understand it, is one of mine, along with healing. I’m already a pro at the former (been in marketing and communications for more than 20 years!); I’m working on the latter. Very arduously!

I still have moments when I step back, look at this, and think, “Good grief, did I WRITE that? Am I really putting this up for public access?” And then I get the Willies again.

Anyway, it’s a done deed. I’m so grateful that my husband is totally with me, and supportive of all of this! During this last batch of additional abilities, I withheld a lot of information from him for almost two months, because I didn’t know if and when he would understand, but there was a point when I knew he was ready for it… and he definitely didn’t disappoint. Not only that, but he’s trying to open himself up, too! He’s not been deluged with information, the way I have, but in a way he has – now through me. And he just gets it. He’s not questioned it for one minute. How awesome!

Also, I would be remiss if I didn’t mention the AWESOMENESS of someone who’s become a good friend over the past few months, (Rev.) Phran Gacher (see the links in the right navigation to her businesses, Perfect Ceremonies and Inside Out Healings). SHE was the one who I was “told” to talk to when all this “vibrating” and other stuff began. What an enlightened person – talk about awakened! She is by far one of the most fascinating, effervescent, and knowledgeable people I know, and though she’s had more than her share of grief and mourning over the past few years, she still manages to be a beacon to everyone around her… I don’t think she even knows it!

As for everyone else, well… I’ve been amazed at how many people in totally different situations have suddenly found a way to bring up “things” to me, especially over the past several weeks. People I would never have otherwise thought to discuss all of this with, and who I’ve subsequently become much closer to.

So, anyway, enough about this. About me – well, I’ve shared the really important stuff, but here goes the rest: I could be you. I’m intelligent, witty, fun, and beautiful, yet I still have plenty of stressed, cranky, tired moments, too (ask my kids!). I’ve been with my husband for 17.5 years (married for 15.5 years), and I have two daughters, aged 11 and 13, both of whom I think would be fairly “Aware” if it weren’t for those pubescent moments! Every once in awhile, I see a peek, and am hopeful… 

I spent more than 18 years in the large, international corporate world, and did really well in successive marketing management roles. Then I quit in 2006, at the apex of my career, to dedicate myself full time to starting an organic herb nursery. Talk about change of life! In 2008, I came full circle for a number of reasons, and started my current company, AboutFace Marketing, and I help many small and medium businesses get “to the next level.” I love it – and just know I’m following the right path, as strange as it may seem from the outside.

I come from Long Island, NY (United States), and after a 9-year stay in upstate NY (Albany-Saratoga Springs area), I realized I HATED cold weather and moved down South, ending up (happily) in North Carolina in 1996. As I said, we have our two kids, and way too many pets in our house – 2 cats, 3 dogs, and sometimes fish. But it’s home! The four of us are all avid readers, we all exercise like fiends, and we’re all 2nd degree black belts in Tae Kwon Do (the best family therapy ever!).

That’s really more than you need to know… except that I wanted to make sure you understand I could be just about anybody! I could live next door to you, I could be you, or your spouse, sibling, parent, child, or boss. Because we’re all going to be doing this together – some now, some later – and as a whole, we all need to get used to the idea that what currently seems “supernatural” to us is indeed simply “natural.”

You’ll remember – just wait and see!